What’s depression like?

Written By: Lee Nguyen

“What’s depression like?” “It’s like drowning, except you can see everyone else around you breathing.”

High school can be extremely stressful and can impact your life emotionally and physically. The school work, the grades, the environment, just about anything and everything can, and will, wear you down. You don’t meet expectations. You’re drowning in disappointment. You’re depressed because you’re not what you should be. Depression can hit you anytime and anywhere. Sometimes it makes you feel like your emotional and physical state of being is slowly deteriorating. It can be tiring and absolutely unbearable. It digs you a deep hole and it pushes you in. Depression isn’t an easy state to get out of, but you need to be strong and pull yourself out of that ditch. Don’t stop trying and do not stop believing in yourself. Don’t dig the hole any deeper than it already is, because after digging a few hundred, maybe even a few thousand metres down, you’ll get stuck.  Being stuck in a dark hole can make you lose hope and it loosens your control and grasp on reality. At times it can send you in a state of hopelessness and you just get tired of yourself. Your grades begin to drop by a tiny percentage,  you begin to lose a few hours of sleep, and you miss a couple of meals. You’re fragile, tired and stuck in the “labyrinth of suffering” (from Looking for Alaska by John Green). You start to fall apart. You start failing, you rarely eat and you’re lucky to have a meal a day. Getting an hour or two of sleep would be rare. You start to break and crack to pieces. You’re chained down in this ditch by hopelessness and exhaustion. You don’t know what to do with yourself, and you just stop trying. A couple of hands reach into the ditch to pull you out, but your arms are chained down and you can’t reach, they’ve stopped trying, too. They reach down again; they tell you that you’ll be fine and that they’ll get you help. You don’t reach up, you think you’re a nuisance, and that maybe it’s better off this way. You think that maybe, they don’t care. You don’t think their actions are genuine, and that they just pity you and when you’re down there…you just think that maybe, just maybe, the world would be better off without you.  “Sadness is like a drug.  It takes you away from reality, and makes you see it in a whole new way.”  At times it can lead to the most murderous thoughts.  It makes you contemplate suicide and how easy it would be to end things. You feel like no one understands, and no one cares. But this is where the red sign comes up.  STOP! Stop everything. There is a way to fix this, even if it the solution doesn’t seem clear now, it doesn’t mean it’s not there. As cliché and corny as it sounds, life will get better. And whenever you feel lonely, suicidal or depressed, talk to someone, and don’t act irrationally upon your feelings. Leaving is easy, but being left behind is ten times worse. Life is precious; it’s not something to throw away. It does get better, even if it seems like you’re in hell now. Please don’t quit. Don’t let go just yet, and hold on tight. Life is hard now, and it may seem like it’s getting worse and worse, but there will be a day where the sun shines brighter and life will get better. Get help, talk to someone, and live happily.  Here you are at the end of this article, so let’s make a promise…to yourself and everyone who cares for you; hold on tight, because Life will get better. It just takes time.

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